I've just realised how I really don't think I have any friends I can call in the middle of the night when

1. I can't fall asleep
2. I'm feeling sad about my life
3. I just need someone to talk to

It's like when I look at my classmates, they all have their own friends that they can count on in times of crisis. The only person that I think I can count on right now is like _____, and she only has about a thousand other commitments.

Maybe I should stop being
1. a hermit
2 so critical

It's like, when people are upset and they turn to their friends, I turn to DBSK.
It's really quite sad I guess.... but me lamenting about my sad life is nothing new...
I wish I had a really, really good friend all to myself.
Maybe it's my selfishness that's keeping me from getting that good friend.

Got results back today.
I didn't shed a single tear this time, surprisingly, what with a F9 for my favourite subject.
I surprise myself sometimes.
It seems like I'm becoming more and more distant from the real me...
I really should just focus on my studies instead and stay a hermit for life.

(So emo, so unlike the Eileen you know?)